Powered By Blogger

Tuesday, July 17, 2018

Autism: Why me?

Preface: This article is based on what I have found in the bible that answers a lot of personal questions. This article is more universal than my last ones, and isn't specific to the autism spectrum, but can also include any other type of disability or disease, even cancer. The question that often gets asked is why does this person go through this? Does God even care?

As I have said before, I am a counselor at the Woodcrest Retreat in Ephrata. Each week, we as counselors lead bible time with our campers, and day 1 is always regarding Psalms 139 and what it means to be fearfully and wonderfully made. Each week I share with my campers that I am autistic. Last week however, a camper asked me a really good question. "What does the bible say about autism?" While the bible does not mention autism by name, there are some universal lessons to be learned.

Lets start with John 9:1-3. Sometimes it might seem like God is punishing you because you have a disability, but as we see in John 9, this is actually far from the truth. This passage speaks of a blind man who has been blind since birth. This is what is written. "As he passed by, he saw a man blind from birth, and his disciples asked him, Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?" Jesus answered, it was not that this man sinned, or his parents, but that the works of God might be displayed in him" (ESV). When I first came across this passage, I was blown away. First of all, this serves as a reminder, that someone who suffers from anything since birth isn't cursed. In fact, there is a purpose.

Even today, we can see God using people with disabilities to impact others. Even as someone with a disability I can see God using OTHER people with disabilities to impact ME. Now, one thing that frustrates me is a common theme. People who have dealt with individuals on the spectrum might say that they learned to be more patient, or they learned to be more understanding. These are broad lessons, but each individual has something more to offer. I decided to ask one of my closest friends what they have learned from me, and this is what she had to say. "Your determination to not let what you have you saw as a negative thing in you to tear you down has encouraged me to think more positively". 

Since dealing with some very difficult events, I have really struggled with my identity and who I am. I began to let my identity come from my disability, and yet, according to 2 Corinthians 5:17, "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away, behold, the new has come" (ESV). What this means is that when we accept Christ, and that he died for us to bear the weight of our sins, our identity comes from HIM. I am the biggest hypocrite in the world when I say that. I say it almost every day, even though I struggle with it myself.

Something else that struck me though in my search to what the bible said about autism or other disabilities is the story of Moses. I came to discover in Exodus 4:10 that Moses wasn't exactly gifted with communication skills. This is something that many people on the autism spectrum struggle with. What God said to Moses however is something we need to take to heart. Exodus 4:10-12 says "But Moses said to the LORD, Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue. Then the LORD said to him, Who has made man's mouth? Who made him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the LORD?" (ESV). Here, we see God literally reminding Moses that he was made in HIS image. Not man's image.

What does all of this mean? First and foremost, everyone serves a purpose in the Kingdom of God. A question that people often ask, is does God even care for the disabled? The answer? This shouldn't even be a question. Because God created us in His image, he loves each and every one of us, and he actually has a purpose for those differences. As David says in Psalm 139:14a "I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made" (ESV). With people who walk through life with these struggles, come testimonies that change lives. But even more so, those with disabilities, are walking testimonies. 

I have a friend who works at a camp upstate, that is designed for people with severe developmental disabilities. I ask her regularly how things are going, and her response is always the same. In her words, "God has just been teaching me so much about His love that never fails. His love is so evident here, I'm so overwhelmed by it". Why does God give some people disabilities? Again, as John 9:3 states, so that the works of God might be displayed in those people.

Need more reasons why? Sometimes coming across an individual with a disability will completely change your life. It is our story for his glory. It isn't just the individual with the disability who is impacted, but it is also everyone who comes across that person. Sometimes we just need to be reminded about how much God loves us. Sometimes we just need to be reminded that our identity comes from Christ, not our disabilities.

Here is another thing to think about, and this is more geared toward watching people suffer. I have heard plenty of testimonies regarding cancer. Stories of those who beat it, and stories of those who lost their battles. No matter how that battle is going, it serves as a reminder, that GOD IS ALWAYS IN CONTROL. No matter what the illness may be, it serves as that reminder. Even if a battle is lost, that individual still serves their purpose in the Kingdom of God. Loss might be a painful thing, but it is a reminder, that our time here on Earth is short, but it is the decisions that we make that determine how we spend eternity.

One last thing. No matter what you are faced with, Faith, is the most powerful thing in the world. It says so in the bible. Matthew 17:20 says, and this is Jesus speaking "For truly I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, Move from here to there, and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you" (ESV). With faith, even just the size of a mustard seed, there is no challenge that cannot be overcome. That being said, we also must realize, that sometimes God will decide to move us instead of the mountain in front of us. In my case, the mountain is my autism. But God decided to move me instead. He gave me a new perspective that came with purpose.

God did not make any mistakes when he created anyone. God created each of us on purpose. And just like everyone else, we have a purpose to serve in the Kingdom of God. Because no matter what our disability is, God still gifts us talents.

No comments:

Post a Comment